"Nature proves hard to ignore."

damn, this paper is turning out terribly . . . but it is turning out. and, at this rate, i'll get 2 hours of rest, and then have three hours where i can hopefully revise it to a point where the writing is no longer so awful.

we'll see . . . ~1500 words written, with my third argument and conclusion yet to be drafted. length won't be a problem (yay), but there are many, many other problems.

i wish i could just turn my outline and citation pages in, that the professor could examine the logic of my arguments that way. if nothing else, it would save me some embarassment--last paper, i finished a draft two days before it was due and had that much time to revise to perfection yet still made some tremendous writing errors.

my arguments will work, particularly because my citations do actually follow a cohesive progression/logic . . . but the wrapping--the actual paper, the finding ways to pose that logic in a standard form--i am worried about.

oh, right, and the one thing i was looking forward to today (seeing a new draft of my fiction class play performed) didn't happen.

almost ready to pray (!!!) that december not play out like this month at all. fuck november 2007.