"Tonight's Show is Sold-out"

Tried to see Tera Melos last night, but was turned away at the door . . . a first at the in-town venue. Left in a pretty bad mood, feeling like my plans for the rest of the weekend died unceremoniously. Listened to "Farewell Kingdom" by World's End Girlfriend before turning in for the night, and that . . . solidified my mood, I suppose.

Will try visiting the venue again later tonight for a Toybox Theatre show. Wondering if a friend will respond to a voice-mail left Thursday evening . . . thinking chances therein are fairly slim.

Found myself feeling extremely nostalgic with Stargate: SG1 turned on in the background while playing Hellgate: London a few hours ago. Felt like I belong somewhere else right now, with different company . . . and also felt the shadow of the demon called "career" looming precariously above my shoulders.

My mood is pretty grim right now . . . believing that life, particularly in my current moment, is meaningful is proving rather difficult. I think I remember this mood popping up before Thanksgiving in the past . . .

It's tiring . . . but it's a little better than being inexplicably angry.