Uneasy triumph

The Burning Five is finished--the first copy, although having some bonus footage I want to modify, was successfully burned onto a DVD early this morning.

There are, of course, many small problems I am aware of that I could go back a tweak, but running after "small problems" always leads to wanting to completely revamp entire scenes, adding months more of production . . . so I'm stopping with that. The movie is cohesive in a way that I find quite satisfying--I hope everyone else will, too. This is what I wanted . . . I made too many mistakes early on to achieve perfection with this project.

These things noted, I feel uneasy . . . quite lacking in energy and motivation. I had been expecting that finishing the movie would give me a large boost of both things that would easily fuel everything necessary to set up a handful of local public screenings, as well as sending out copies to friends in other colleges to screen abroad.

I didn't think I would finish things this month . . . it's a surprise, really--entirely the product of having a week without classes, particularly so unexpectedly.

I'm glad I really made the most out of my week off . . . but now I'm not sure if I'm actually rested in the way the week was supposed to give NIU students. I probably am, and have just hit a mild depressive mood that will dissipate shortly. However, at the moment I am uneasy.

Still thinking about the same ancient ghosts . . . still speculating when might I finally see my sun.