avengers in sci-fi
The last weeks have been . . . troubling, in ways, but in a mostly-disconnected form. Lots of light worrying, and pandering to low-productivity habits. Also, much learning and uncovering--thinking I am nearing a number of creative breakthroughs that will positively enhance things in a profound way.
Listening to some music: Miki Furukawa, iLL (Koji Nakamura), and Avengers in Sci-Fi. Perhaps shifting back to Eastern musics has amplified the weirdness I've been feeling lately.
Really, it's hard to describe--I've tried in some correspondence since last week, & have not done very well. I feel fundamentally disconnected, yet inspired in strange ways . . . maybe what I've been working at personality-wise is starting to surface. That is, I've been trying to better understand my emotions, and to not run away whenever an insight comes to me without rational packaging.
I can't say where any of this will lead . . . hopefully to taking a step forward in my desired path to becoming a "professional" artist--probably a poet. Poetry is something I have really been excited about this year, something I've been looking forward to figuring a lot more about since I failed to snag a spot in the Writing Poetry course last Spring. Therein, I believe I've already made some breakthroughs . . . but I can't say, once again, where, when, or what might come of things.
I have my own ideas . . . dreams, mostly--ideals. These are personal, and I will keep them guarded for now. I am still quite aware of the lessons articulated in 2006: particularly "hope rides alone."
As distant & worried as I've been feeling, there has also been a deep calm when I've taken moments to think in solitude. Inspirations have been visiting such moments. I'm in the middle of writing a 180+ line poem, and am close to pinning down concepts for several more.
Unfortunately, I haven't been in a proper mood to finish the movie since just before school started back up, and this is particularly annoying because I am *so close* to encoding a final cut. It'll be done before June . . . but I keep making and breaking promises of "within the week" and "certainly before the end of the month," so I won't say that. There's something like 30-40 hours of work left . . . I've been tackling about 50 hours of movie work every six months or so. Thus, before June.
Listening to: "Dance to the Future" by Avengers in Sci-Fi
Listening to some music: Miki Furukawa, iLL (Koji Nakamura), and Avengers in Sci-Fi. Perhaps shifting back to Eastern musics has amplified the weirdness I've been feeling lately.
Really, it's hard to describe--I've tried in some correspondence since last week, & have not done very well. I feel fundamentally disconnected, yet inspired in strange ways . . . maybe what I've been working at personality-wise is starting to surface. That is, I've been trying to better understand my emotions, and to not run away whenever an insight comes to me without rational packaging.
I can't say where any of this will lead . . . hopefully to taking a step forward in my desired path to becoming a "professional" artist--probably a poet. Poetry is something I have really been excited about this year, something I've been looking forward to figuring a lot more about since I failed to snag a spot in the Writing Poetry course last Spring. Therein, I believe I've already made some breakthroughs . . . but I can't say, once again, where, when, or what might come of things.
I have my own ideas . . . dreams, mostly--ideals. These are personal, and I will keep them guarded for now. I am still quite aware of the lessons articulated in 2006: particularly "hope rides alone."
As distant & worried as I've been feeling, there has also been a deep calm when I've taken moments to think in solitude. Inspirations have been visiting such moments. I'm in the middle of writing a 180+ line poem, and am close to pinning down concepts for several more.
Unfortunately, I haven't been in a proper mood to finish the movie since just before school started back up, and this is particularly annoying because I am *so close* to encoding a final cut. It'll be done before June . . . but I keep making and breaking promises of "within the week" and "certainly before the end of the month," so I won't say that. There's something like 30-40 hours of work left . . . I've been tackling about 50 hours of movie work every six months or so. Thus, before June.
Listening to: "Dance to the Future" by Avengers in Sci-Fi
posted by SJ at 2/06/2008 04:40:00 PM
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