After Innocence
"But now I'm thinking about that smile... and I almost want to cry. It was such a beautiful, innocent dream... it is so bloody now. And I still am convinced I can find a way to prove final closure by the end of the year--if I do, it will be a performance of the epitomy of masochism. I want to know why it was that smile that I focused on..."
I wrote that some time last March, the day I finally got to participate in the traditional pre-schooler day in band. I recited a poem I drafted a period or two before, and I demonstrated my capability as well I could. Those memories just don't want to die--the most apt implication I derive from this is I shall remain lonely for a long time, until my name is recognized by a woman, a stranger, I believe I can trust.
About three hours ago, I sent Frigo a first vignette to start illustrating--our second comic has him doing all the art and me doing all the writing, but how I'm setting it up we both are largely collaborating to create a unique character. It is set to focus on a sociopathic (I think that's the word of the night--I've used it probably a dozen times since this morning) boy in a city envisioning a number of the vignettes I've written since early Senior year. I told Frigo to draw mixing surreal imagery with the reality that actually exists beyond this child's fantastic mind. I don't know where this child is going to go yet--but if my first indication, how I've been imagining it since I passed the idea of giving Scott some vignettes to illustrate, this child is going to enlighten his society.
Other things of note: I played the Darwinia demo after finishing with classes around 12:30 and watched Spider Man 2. Not an entirely impressive day, but things, I suppose, are beginning to be afoot.
I wrote that some time last March, the day I finally got to participate in the traditional pre-schooler day in band. I recited a poem I drafted a period or two before, and I demonstrated my capability as well I could. Those memories just don't want to die--the most apt implication I derive from this is I shall remain lonely for a long time, until my name is recognized by a woman, a stranger, I believe I can trust.
About three hours ago, I sent Frigo a first vignette to start illustrating--our second comic has him doing all the art and me doing all the writing, but how I'm setting it up we both are largely collaborating to create a unique character. It is set to focus on a sociopathic (I think that's the word of the night--I've used it probably a dozen times since this morning) boy in a city envisioning a number of the vignettes I've written since early Senior year. I told Frigo to draw mixing surreal imagery with the reality that actually exists beyond this child's fantastic mind. I don't know where this child is going to go yet--but if my first indication, how I've been imagining it since I passed the idea of giving Scott some vignettes to illustrate, this child is going to enlighten his society.
Other things of note: I played the Darwinia demo after finishing with classes around 12:30 and watched Spider Man 2. Not an entirely impressive day, but things, I suppose, are beginning to be afoot.
posted by SJ at 1/28/2005 11:50:00 PM
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